Dam, seriously, recently i totally got no mood or motivation to go school. Have been going school for just 2 days only per week, this really suck, the first time I felt so bad that I didn't manage to go school as I seriously felt I've let my mum down and also myself. I'm losing interests in everything man, even for running, I just got myself up for it again as it's my interest but now I'm falling again. FUCK~ I want back my motivation! ;/



I want to move out! I want to live alone outside in a flat since I'm already having this feeling even when I'm living here with so many people. I guess staying out with friends will make my life even more happy. I wanna be independent! (; At the very least, I won't have the drift off feeling from my family~ ;/