Dam, seriously, recently i totally got no mood or motivation to go school. Have been going school for just 2 days only per week, this really suck, the first time I felt so bad that I didn't manage to go school as I seriously felt I've let my mum down and also myself. I'm losing interests in everything man, even for running, I just got myself up for it again as it's my interest but now I'm falling again. FUCK~ I want back my motivation! ;/



I want to move out! I want to live alone outside in a flat since I'm already having this feeling even when I'm living here with so many people. I guess staying out with friends will make my life even more happy. I wanna be independent! (; At the very least, I won't have the drift off feeling from my family~ ;/

Hi! I'm here to blog again! quite a long time ever since I last blog eh, it's alright, my life is boring too, nothing much to update, haha. Anyway, I've joined an IG which is CCA in school this year! So hardworking right?! I know it man, haha. Furthermore, it's track and field and it's long distance running!! Even more cool right?! haha, i know it man, I'm back to the old field, haha. The training is really tough when I just joined but it's my interest so I would determine all the way even though how tough and tiring it can be. Anyway, it can also be a way to vent my unhappiness, so it's good yea, one stone kill 2 birds, haha! Actually today I'm supposed to participate in a relay marathon at macritchie but something cockup, so we didn't register, if not we can get second leh! dam it! anyway, there's will only be 2 teams running for that category if our team register, and that's why we would get second, HAHAHHAHA! and the first is also from my school one, and it's the seniors, LOL! Anyway, I do have a improvement today for my timing, so I'm glad enough already, hohoho! I must improve in every training! So I've to push, push and push regardless of anything! I WANT TO BE UP IN THE TOP LIST! YEA! I KNOW I CAN DO IT! WAHAHAHAHAHA!

BTW, I GONNA GET MY CAR LICENSE SOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!! WAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

OH~ I'm having insomnia again ;/ recently always like this, how ar? ;/ Anyway, I also don't know why would I suddenly feel like blogging in the middle of the night and it's when I've got nothing to blog about, lol. Updown left right, messy, confused, indecisive, that's what I am now. Cool eh, In fact I myself not sure what am I getting so bothered about. I wanna go partyyyyyyyy!

Anyway, my BTT date is finally reaching!! and so, this means I'm so gonna start driving soon! wahahha, I wanna drive, I'm gonna drive all around singapore! LOl! WOOS! It's 5am now, wonderful, later still got school, and it's the god dam chemistry, I'm so gonna get left out once again ); and there will be lab work! CHEMISTRY SUCK! BOOs! BYE PEOPLE!

AH HA! drink drank drunk! lol. Btw ytd is really fun, tonning over at sam's house with zw, jy, yl and of course sam. We seriously were dam crazy last night, especially the part when we were kinda shag and drunk when playing the card games, but the fun part is at the forfeit. They make me see so many obscene stuff man! ); But there's lots of laughter in it. Btw It's very embarrassed if i said who did what, so I shall just say what did they do infront of a webcam to others somemore! hahahha! dam bad siol =x I saw someone fucking the wall, the chicken, and lots more lah! one more dam funny, leg so many hair yet wanna act one sexy with his leg =x HAHAHHAHAHA! but lucky, i'm the kind one, i didn't do those, just drink only, hohohoho! Then after that just go for our gaming and slowly all down one by one. lol.

BTW! TMR SCHOOL AGAIN! ); weekend is passing so fast man! school sucks );

WEEEEE! great man! THANKYOU JINGYUAN AND YUNLONG MAN! Indeed very long didn't have any birthday surprise alr eh, thanks lots for the cake and for being so sweet, hahahahhaha! To be honest, I do felt touched when I saw yunlong is back with a cake. Greatly appreciated guys(; Lets hope my wish will come true man and since this is the first time I got to have my b'day wish after so many years, and I really do wish whole heartedly, hope it won't disappoint me(:

Yea! Btw I wanna go night life man! It's really nice xD and one more thing! I WANNA DRIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I'm so gonna register ltr! WOOOS! It's 7.30am now! and 15 more mins they gonna open man! hohohoho =x

WEEEEE!!! I'm finally 18 man! yay! 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18! I WANNA DRIVE CARRRRRRRRRR!!! hehehehe.

Okay, enuogh of nonsense, anyway, thanks lots to the guys today and also thank you for all the wishing i've got from anyone. Really had lots of fun, but it will be better if you're there as well... Btw specially thanks to my bro as well! thankyou (:

Why? Why all this is happening so suddenly and unexpectedly. No matter what I really can't bring myself to believe all this. But every of it seems so true that I don't know if I should believe it. I'm feeling so confused! Why should I do? I guess if i'm strong and determine enough in the past, all this would not even be affecting me now. But I shall not have any regrets as I chosen this path willingly. Now knowing all this, although i'm really feeling so vex but I thought i'm supposed to feel kinda upset. Instead of that, I'm feeling more towards disappointment and shocked. This isn't the one I used to know and understand, everything seems to be changing or maybe it's already been this way, but just that I didn't realised. It's all so scary and unexpected. Somehow I thought I could straighten my thoughts now but I doubt I could do it, it still seems so impossible. Hope whatever it is, I would not be wrong and regret for what I've decided in future.

Disappointment.