Why? Why all this is happening so suddenly and unexpectedly. No matter what I really can't bring myself to believe all this. But every of it seems so true that I don't know if I should believe it. I'm feeling so confused! Why should I do? I guess if i'm strong and determine enough in the past, all this would not even be affecting me now. But I shall not have any regrets as I chosen this path willingly. Now knowing all this, although i'm really feeling so vex but I thought i'm supposed to feel kinda upset. Instead of that, I'm feeling more towards disappointment and shocked. This isn't the one I used to know and understand, everything seems to be changing or maybe it's already been this way, but just that I didn't realised. It's all so scary and unexpected. Somehow I thought I could straighten my thoughts now but I doubt I could do it, it still seems so impossible. Hope whatever it is, I would not be wrong and regret for what I've decided in future.

Disappointment.